Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Polka-dotted Milestones . . .

If you've been reading this blog for a little while, then you know about my struggle with a major lifestyle change over the last year. Last January, I decided I was finally going to get healthy, get in shape, lose weight, and stop hating my reflection. So, with a lot (LOT!) or hard work, I went from a size 16 to a size 10 in 12 months. I'm not kidding about the work. I ran, lifted weights, did yoga and aerobics, joined an aerial class (several!), and went from eating junk 24/7 to trying to eat healthier. I've had my set-backs and I've slacked off (hello, holidays!), but for the most part I'm proud of the progress I've made. I still have a long way to go towards my goal of reaching a size 6, but at least it's in sight now.

So, today, I reached a little milestone. For so long, I've been ashamed of the way my body looked; I haven't even owned a swimsuit or pair of shorts in 15 or 20 years, and the summer season usually means wearing jeans and dresses that hit the knee and never above. Today, I bought my first pair of shorts in I don't know how long.

It was kind of a lark; I walked into Ann Taylor Loft and went back to their sale section, and I saw this pair of navy and white printed shorts. Now, these are much shorter than anything I ever wear, and when I grabbed them off the rack I thought "Why not? I'll give them a shot; the only person who'll see them is me." I went back there with my size 8 shorts (Ann Taylor is a size down from everywhere else for me), and I gave them a whirl. And, surprise, surprise: they did not look hideously embarassing. They were cute. I checked my own ass out. It was quite a moment. After that, I couldn't walk out of the store without them.

So, yes, I still have a lot of miles to go before I drop another two sizes and get to where I want to be. I still look in the mirror at the flab around my midsection or the size of my hips and thighs and sigh. I'm still not a skinny girl. But, this summer, I'll be wearing shorts.


Amber Page Writes said...

Congratulations. Seriously. Not just on the weight loss, but on being able to appreciate the cuteness of your own booty. That's a hard battle to win.

Ed said...

What's wrong with hips and thighs? Stop comparing your body to everyone else and learn to love yourself.